Our Little Blueberry

Another week has passed, and now you are 10,000 times bigger than you were at the moment you were conceived. You are the size of a blueberry! Your brain cells are forming at 100 cells per minute. Your mouth and tongue are forming and so are your arm and leg buds (when I told your Daddy last night that your mouth and tongue were forming, he said "Oh dear, it's probably going to come out just like you." Not sure what that was supposed to mean, but I think I'll take it as a compliment). :) And finally, your kidneys are formed and are now ready to begin their job!

The cramps that I had been having have finally decreased in frequency and it has actually been a couple days since I've had anything at all.  I hope this will continue! Because this blog is only intended for personal and family viewing, I'm also going to document that I have had quite a lot of breast tenderness since the very beginning. In fact, I noticed that things didn't feel right and were extremely painful the night before I took the first test. That really has not subsided but it is certainly something I can deal with. Just keeping my fingers crossed that I'm one of the 25% who have no morning sickness, fatigue, nausea, etc! Otherwise continuing to feel great!

Your Dad also likes to refer to you as "Biggie Smalls" whenever we talk about you, and I have told him a million times that that is NOT happening, because that is the very name he throws out every time a cat happens to be nameless. I will not give in, nor refer to you as Biggie Smalls. Last night, I had my first feeling that you are going to be a...Boy. Not sure why or where it came from, but for right now that is my gut feeling. So then Daddy began calling you "LD" for "Little Daniel." I told him I didn't think it was appropriate because there is still a 50/50 chance you are a girl and asked "then what?" To which he replied, "It still can be LD-for Little Devil because she will be a mini-you." It was all fun and games but that is not what I am going to call you. So, before you have an official name it is looking like you may have several. Daddy is going to call you LD apparently, and I am going to call you Bug.

We are SO looking forward to telling our families about you this coming week at graduation.  Can't even wait! Prayers and Love in Week 7!

6 Weeks!

Goodness, we are beginning week 6 already! This week your jaws, cheeks and chin begin to form. Your ear canals are forming. Your kidneys, liver, and lungs are starting to take shape. According to books, your heart is already beating 80 times each minute, and getting faster every day. It still hasn't really hit me that this is all true just yet, but I know it will as soon as we get to see you on our first ultrasound. What a blessing this is; I pray for each part of your development every day.


Other than some cramps (extreme at times) usually in the evenings, I have felt great. It is still very early, but still not extremely tired and haven't been nauseous...two of the things that I was dreading the most.


This has been a hard couple days on me. I had an interview yesterday and it didn't turn out like I would have liked it to. It sounds like they think it would be a good fit for them, but I am just not convinced that working every Saturday is what I want to be doing. I'm doing the only thing that I can - continue to pray, and trust that God knows what he is doing with all of these financial circumstances that are overwhelming me this week. These verses has been heavy on my heart, especially this week:

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?

So do not worry, saying, `What shall we eat?' or `What shall we drink?' or `What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Matthew 6:26-31

We can't wait until we get to start telling our families and friends. Your Daddy came home from work yesterday and sat down on the couch where I was studying and I looked up at him and I could tell he had something on his mind. I asked what he was thinking, and he said "I just want to tell someone!" Pretty cute if you ask me (and I agree!!). On that same note, the morning we found out we were expecting, I was getting ready for work and he was laying in bed and I looked at him and asked him what he was thinking about, and he said "Names." That wasn't the last time that has been his response either. We have a a couple girl names that we both agree on, but he is just quite indecisive which boy name he would choose. I, however, love them both and will probably just let him make the final decision. It's still so far away, but we began talking about this years ago. Believe me, your name will not be something that hasn't been given years of thought! We love you so much, Little One!

1 Samuel 1:27

"I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him."

1 Samuel 1:27 

Nine years ago, I was at church youth group and one of our leaders shared with me that she had began praying for her future husband and future children when she was very young. I saw firsthand how God had blessed her with a loving husband and knew that I wanted to make that investment in my future. So, at age 16, I began praying for my future husband and children. I had no idea that God would answer my prayers so perfectly with your Daddy. He was the kind, gentle, compassionate man that I prayed for and longed for for so many years. I knew he was the One the first time I met him, and I couldn't be more excited for this life journey that we are sharing.

As for children, my prayer has always been that, God-willing, I would be able to have children. I knew I wanted to be a mother since I was very young, but was willing to wait until the timing was right. And that has been my prayer since your Daddy and I got married - that we would be blessed with a child when the timing was right, and I so trust that right now more than ever. With graduation from PA school fast approaching, a job search that has not been secured, and a few new payments in the budget each month now, it is hard to not be uneasy about the future. But I trust fully in what God is doing with our life, and we welcome this blessing with open arms!

I don't know where to start. I have been waiting for this day my entire life. It seems that several of my big prayers have been answered all in the past month. I am nearing the end of school (finally!), will be taking boards in less than a month, and found out that we are expecting you, our first child, in December. Because I want to remember every ounce of excitement that I have right now, I want to use this blog to document your life from the very beginning. And so, here is how the story of you began!

April 10 - 1st pregnancy test...very faint 2nd line. I didn't believe it. I was going to try to wait to tell your Daddy until after work so we could share the moment in person, but within a couple seconds we were on the phone. I absolutely could not wait. He stopped on his way home from Seward at lunch to take a peek, and he confirmed that it was  definitely there, but very faint. Took a digital test when I got home from work (after drinking a lot of fluids) and it read "Not Pregnant." Slightly confused by this point. Disappointment was overcoming me, because I just had a feeling. Also had a feeling that I had over-hydrated, which probably skewed the results.

April 11 - Took test first thing in the morning, and it was an even darker 2nd line than the day before. Called Daddy, who by that time, said he was positive that indeed, this was really true. He was so excited! I was still in denial. Came home from work and took another digital test, and this time it read "Pregnant." Be still, my heart! Called to make first doctor's appointment, set for May 7th. Counting down the days, because we should be able to hear your heart beat by that time!

As for me, it is still very very early, so nothing exciting yet. Felt pretty bloated today and had some cramping, but no other symptoms yet!

Your are currently the size of an orange seed, and your heart is beginning to form. Just as I have been, you can bet that I will be praying for every bit of your development in these next 9 months. What an amazing miracle; we can't wait to watch you grow!

Oh, Little One, we are thrilled! You have been created in Heavenly and earthly love, and we are honored to be given this opportunity. You have been prayed for, planned on, and talked about for years, and there is no doubt that you will be entering a family who couldn't possibly be more excited! You are going to have some grandparents and aunts and uncles who are going to be just as excited as we are.